Controlling myself is always a must. I try not to get mad at someone because if I did, I might do or say something that would hurt them even more. I try not to talk back to people who offended me, because some of what they’ve said is true and I don’t even have a thing to fight back about. I try my fucking best not to cry in front them so that they wouldn’t have to repeat what they’ve said over and over…but they just keep on shooting me and I have no idea how to dodge the bullets, so it always end up hitting me.
I hope when it’s my time to burst every thoughts and feelings that I wasn’t able to let out, someone will be there to support me. Because right now, I can’t even stand on my own feet. And I can’t help it but to feel so worthless.
Controlling myself is a must. // A Story A Day #03 (via poetastry)